On January 15, 2011 at the “Taking Your Dreams from Design to Destiny” Women’s Conference Ananda Leeke will be presenting a special talk entitled “Who’s Living Inside of Me?” Ananda’s presentation offers participants an opportunity to meet the personalities or archetypes living inside of them and to discover how these archetypes shape our dreams and ultimately our destiny.
I have always known that there are many distinct aspects to my personality. Perhaps being a Gemini led to the acceptance of this at an early age. Whenever someone asked me which “twin” they were seeing, my response was always “there aren’t just two of me.”
I have long been fascinated with the female archetypes that live in our collective unconscious. This fascination led to the research and creation that went into my “Reclaiming the G*ddess” series of paintings. Although that search was fuelled specifically by a need to find and excavate images of the feminine divine, divinity is just one aspect of the feminine archetype. In fact there is no finite number of feminine archetypes.
Many of us embody several female and male archetypes. Ananda has defined five distinct personalities with different names. I have defined four and these aspects hold derivations of my name.
Who lives inside of you?
I first gave conscious thought to naming the different aspects of myself when I was about 35. My boyfriend at the time used to refer to them without provocation from me. When he began asking “who is this talking now?” I decided to clarify…
Nicky-playful wild little girl, mishevious vixen, funny, eternal romantic and major flirt
Nicole-the unifying even aspect of my person, rational, thoughtful observer. Most often in control of the show.
Rhona-no-nonsense business woman, very intellectual, driven, focused, a bit zipped up, conservative, sometimes prudish
Nick-tough no-nonsense fighter, protector of the rest, bold, brash, irreverent, powerfully sexy, fearless warrior woman.
Later on two separate occasions while working with two different body work coaches to get past some blocks I discovered that there were also two distinct aspects of myself that were at the root of this stuckness. What I learned is that they, like all aspects of myself are well intentioned and want what they see as best for me, but these two were in opposition and this was hampering my progress around my work. I was frustrated because my Vision was clear but the way I was working did not reflect this clarity nor the passion I felt for it.
Professor Cutts/Soft Mama-is content to stay inside working slowly and thoroughly toward our goals, but she did not want to go outside and deal with the harsh realities of doing business is the big bad world. She wanted someone else to go out there and do it and leave her be with her books, nesting activities and lots of naps.
Kali/Superhero in Black-wants it all now, she is demanding, impatient and ego driven, her motto is “get out of my way or die!” She would destroy whatever gets in her way and enjoy standing atop the heap of the carcasses of her enemies. She can get it done but is often too impatient to focus.
With both Marilyn and Ken I discovered how to work with these disparate forces, discovering that my job is not to suppress either of them but hear them, understand their needs and intentions and call on the right one in the right occasions, not letting either one run the show entirely because they are too extreme in their own ways. Professor Cutts needs to be at work when writing, researching, preparing and nurturing herself. Kali can be called on when we need a fighter and to make those public appearances that call for performance. She’s great on stage. She is also the one to invoke when feeling fearful or defeated because she defeats all and fears none.
So now it’s your turn…
Who lives inside of you? When did you discover them? What are their names and what are they like? How well do they play together? What have you learned from them?
Drop me a line and share your discoveries.
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